Nora's Simple Faith and Closeness to the Veil

 

On the day of March 19th I don't have man memories of interactions with Nora that day amidst the craziness, amidst the tragedy.  She was only three when Buster died and yet she acted much older and wiser than a three year old at times.  When I first walked in and saw my kids for the first time since the crash, they were all in the family room crying.  Nora was laying on Ruby and kind of rubbing her. She was quiet as she observed us all. She didn't make any noise at all for many minutes, which is rather unusual for a rambunctious three year old. She stayed with us while we cried and looked concerned. Then she said "I'm sorry you are all sad".  It was genuine and compassionate, and belied her age.  I don't know where she went after that moment, I have so few interaction with her as the flow of visitors started pouring in and I was just reeling from what had happened, but I do remember one more interaction right before she went to bed.  She looked at me and said simply "Mom Busters in heaven now".  She said it so matter of factly, and yet there was empathy and hope in her voice.  Her simple faith, which really didn't even seem like faith, it felt like a sure knowledge, comforted me.  

As time went on, Nora would do things or say things that lead me to believe she was having experiences with Buster's spirit.  One time we were setting the table, and she said "Set a seat for Buster, I'll go get him" she ran upstairs to his room and called for him.  Then she said to me, "Mom Buster isn't hear right now, he's at the Hudsons playing with Jude".  About a month after the crash Nora told me Buster wasn't here in our home anymore. That made me really sad. Then a few weeks later, after my sister Kelly and I had re-done Warner's room for him Nora said he was back.  Warner hadn't slept in his room since the crash, and had hardly walked in there.  Kelly and I spent all weekend while the kids are away working to get it done. When Warner was finally home and saw it for the first time I said "Is this goin to be ok? Do you think you want to sleep in here tonight"? and then Nora said "Well Buster's here Warner, he's laying in the bed, so he'll be with you".  It made me cry. 

One day a few months ago, maybe six months after the crash, all of our family had just left for youth activities, and it was just Nora and I at the house.  I said to Nora "Hey girl! It's just me and you, what should we do?" and she said "Well, and shiny Buster".  I teared up, I walked up to her and knelt down to her level and said "Nora, do you see Buster sometimes?"  She said "Yes I do".  Then I said "Does he talk to you" and she said "Well, sort of, but not with his mouth".  It felt profound. I really do believe she is having experiences with him.  

The funny part about this is when I shared these things with my family Liv said "I don't get it! I'm righteous and good and read my scriptures and pray and then Nora, the little walking natural man full of impulses gets to see and hear him. How does that work?!"